Updates and random back to school haul! (pic heavy!)

So since classes started I have been so busy! My schedule usually is like this: have class at 8am then come home around 11...devour food..get ready for work.. go to work...get home and pass out. Repeat. So I have not really had the time to make any worth while posts. I did place an order with the lovely and addicting website Haus of Gloi. I was going to do a review post for the goods I got but then they came out with Autumn scents. Yet another order placed! So I was going to wait till this order gets in then give you guys the full review.

I receive a pell grant for college. A pell grant is like a free scholarship for those with low income or whose parents did not go to college. I am lucky I had some left over and I decided to go early Christmas shopping for my man and get me a few new things! I ordered new plugs online from Kings Body Jewelry and went shopping around at little local stores.

Here is my haul from yesterday!

These are from an alternative store called Zero Gravity. The Poe shirt is a size medium but since that was the only shirt they had left I decided it would make an amazing dress. The Marilyn Manson shirt fits me so awesome and the lettering is bright green. The thing about Zero Gravity is if you get anything from them it will have the smell of incense soaked into it. It takes about four washes or more to get the smell out! But I love it so no complaints.

                                                                                                      
Some basic tank tops to match the shirts. A bright green and white one. On sale at a "mainstream" store called Rue 21.

These are also from Rue 21! These are tights and I was lusting after them since I saw them. Rue 21 continues to amaze me with the clothes I find. Remember my Beetlejuice pants? Rue 21!  These are just so unique and they remind me of Rob Zombie for some reason.

 

Much apologies for the horrid picture quality. This pattern is on the waist band of a pair of yoga pants from Rue 21. Okay..so yoga pants are so comfy. They are not for everyone but they remind me of tighter fitting scrubs. I usually wear these around the house or a quick visit to the grocery store.

Some stores already have Halloween stuff out! I look for things I can use all year long. The tablecloth is for the kitchen since the one I have is old and boring. Then I found this amazing six piece kitchen set with dish rags and pot holders. I am so glad I had enough self control to not get plastic hanging bats. So a Haus of Gloi review is coming soon also! Now it is time for me to hop in the shower and get ready for work. Boo!

Filmaholic! (My top five favorite movies)

So classes start tomorrow! I am so excited and amazed and how fast Summer went by. The weather is getting cooler and I can actually wear a sweater without sweating to death! I posted on my Facebook that I needed some inspiration for a blog post. I also like to do posts that others would like to see. So this is my top five favorite movies! (Oh and they are not in any particular order.)



1.  The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus

This movie is visually stunning. I highly recommend this movie. This was Heath Ledger's final film before he died. The story is brilliant and entertaining. This is not a kid friendly movie by the way. See this before you die!





2. Beetlejuice

                                                                                                                 

This was one of my favorite movies as a child. Even though there is a few scenes with cursing in it. "Nice fucking model!" How did I not remember that quote when I was a kid?! Also Lydia fascinated me and the movie remains timeless.




3. The Cell

Okay..I know what you are thinking. Jennifer Lopez is in this movie?! Yea..I know. But this movie inspires me artistically and is so unique compared to other movies. I stumbled upon this assuming it was going to be boring. Not true!.




4. Dead Alive (aka Brain dead)

Zombie babies, butt kicking priests, giant zombie women, death by lawn mower! So many one liners and so much gore. This is the right amount of cheesy lines and camp. Take the movie Evil Dead and combine it with more blood and way too much caffeine. I recommend this to any fan of cult classics or gory zombie movies.




5. Fear And Loathing in Las Vegas

First of all..Johnny Depp is in this. There are so many amazing quotable lines and crazy hallucinations in this movie. I think this is one of Depp's greatest roles. If you do not like viewing drug use...then stay far away from this film. Far far far away!





So do you like any of the movies I like? Are you a big fan of cinema?

10 Random facts about me (Inspired by Sary Walrus!)

So I just viewed this post from The Walrus Room and was inspired! Yea...I agree with Sary. Not going to do 50 facts well...I am not sure if I can think of that many things. I have not been blogging that often due to me working almost everyday! And classes are starting next Monday! *insert stressed face here*


Shall we begin?

1. I love horror movies.

Not sure if you could tell by my Hellraiser purse..hmm. I have a large collection of horror themed items. I have fifty plus horror DVD's and rare VHS tapes that are horror related. I have figurines...etc. Not sure if it has to do with my love of Halloween or my love of the creepy.

2. I write poetry and draw.

My art is a mash up of anime, neo surrealism, and art nuevo. With a splash of gore and blood. I never have taken any art classes because I learn by observing not by telling. Art classes just tend to be talking in my experience. My poetry is very dark. My best writing has been when I was the most depressed. And now that I am happy, have a good job, etc. I have not made any good poetry. Hmm.

3. I am a Theistic Satanist.

Some days I feel like a part of the goth stereotype due to my religion. I have been dedicated for around five years now. But do not let this fool you. I am very accepting and eager to learn about new religions. I have a thing for rosaries. I like old religious art. Some fear my religion due to the "Satanic Panic". Some actually think I sacrifice animals. Uh nope. One of my best friends is a Southern Baptist. Strange huh?

4.  I like girls. I like boys. I like boys that dress like girls.

Sue me. I am comfortable in my own sexuality. I am not ashamed of who I am nor who I am attracted to. Enough said. Oh and I am all for LGBT pride!

5. I was adopted when I was three months old. 

I love my mother! (I am referring to the woman who adopted me.) She gave me a great home, raised me well, and gives me the best advice. And she does not care about how I dress. She always has supported me. and dealt with my angst filled  teenage years. I was a pain in the ass!

6. I defy logic and mystify doctors.

Well when I was born I was supposed to have severe brain damage. I needed a heart monitor, and I was born with fetal alcohol syndrome. I also weighed three lbs when I was born...and I was premature. Goes to show you doctors can be wrong. And you can be whatever you want..despite health problems and the like.

7. I love video games. 

Lollypop Chainsaw,Alice: Madness Returns, and Dante's Inferno are some of my favorite games. Oh and the Lego series games are really fun as well!

8. I am pessimistic.

Despite my bubbly attitude I find it ironic that I am not an optimist. *shrugs* I tend to put myself down and blame myself for simple things. I am trying not to self blame myself and it is a constant struggle to force myself to look at the positives.

9. I despise long sleeved shirts.

They feel constricting. I love sweaters and jackets but long sleeved shirts rub me the wrong way. I also do not like the look (on me) of long sleeved shirts.

10. I fear making friends in real life.

And this is not due to me being anti-social. I am very social! I fear that if I get too close to a person I will be betrayed. This is due to certain events in my life where I was betrayed. I fear losing friends even before I make friends.

Part of my bottle collection. I am not an alcoholic...trust me.

Thank you Sary for being the inspiration for this post! Be sure to add me on tumblr and facebook if you have not already!

What's in my bag?

So I see these posts on almost every blog I follow. so because  I got a new bag I decided to show it off and do a "what's in my bag?" post as well! This week has been busy busy. Also I am going to start classes soon. Only twelve years of education left! *sighs*

I love this thing! I got it from Listia and it is OOAK and hand sewn. It has stripes on the inside and a red zipper closure.

The glittery key chain says "I am not weird..I am gifted!" I got it forever ago and my wallet is almost falling apart!

Various lighters, smokes and writing things. Smoking is bad. I want to quit! And I usually carry multiple lighters.

Makeup bag and contents. Eyeliner, touch up mirror, Warm Sugar cookies perfume oil, Blistex, and oil blotter sheets.

I just got this book and i highly recommend this writer. I special ordered it from work. And I need more time to read!

College I.D. and cute Batman lanyard that I got on sale at Spencers. My picture in this is horrid!!!   

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sunglasses stolen from my boyfriend and my journal. I take this thing with me everywhere. Everyone needs a good journal. I recommend moleskin journals.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Night of the living metal ootd!

Well this is an outfit from Saturday really. My lovely rabbit (aka my boyfriend) had a show and a venue called The High Note. The name of the show was Night of The Living Metal and you could get a cheaper cover charge if you dressed up like a zombie. Well I lacked the time and makeup to be a zombie but ah well. I also recently acquired a skeleton hand hair clip and I love it to pieces!

I caved in and shredded my polka dot tights.

New Boots!

Top: A half shirt accented with safety pins layered over a basic tank
Skirt: On sale at JC Penny (it is sort of a pencil/bodycon skirt)
Tights: Wal-Mart I think
Boots: Shoe Dept. On sale for 30 bucks! I think they are Demonia knock offs
Necklaces: choker from Listia (originally from Hot Topic) and the inverted cross necklace is from Listia as well (Hand Made OOAK)
Sunglasses: stolen from the boyfriend

I love this hair clip so much!

 











                                                                                                               

If you love metal be sure to check out the band Devour By Infection on Facebook! And always support your local music scene!

Why I am goth and how I came to be goth

It has been a while since my last post. I finally signed up for classes for the Fall semester. I have about 12 more years of education to go through. I am going to be a forensic pathologist so basically I have to get a medical degree along with my degree in Forensics. And along with several others I am ready for this dreadful weather to end!

Ever since I remember I loved Halloween and vampires. I remember when I was six seeing a goth man with white contacts at a gas station and was fascinated by him. I always enjoyed the darker things since I can remember. But until sixth grade I had my hair in a high ponytail and wore..*gulp* pink dresses. My hair was still blonde at this time. I was an outcast then for being the weird and smart girl. Two girls during that time dressed in all black and listened to heavy metal. (They were transfer students.) I was inspired and I had just discovered Marilyn Manson and The Cure. I started wearing this ridiculous long and baggy black sweater along with my hair hanging in my face. I also had a pair of stompy boots I loved. The girls of course were angered and claimed I was just a copy cat. *snort* The most recent time I have seen them..they were all decked out in Abercrombie and Fitch.  During this time my self esteem was very low. I wore baggy black clothing to hide myself in. I admit I was not very educated about the history of goth culture.

I went through a time not so long ago when I wore denim and light colored shirts due to deciding If I was really into goth culture and the clothing associated with it or if I just went through a phase.I started feeling uncomfortable in light colors. I had made myself get in a rut because I thought in my beginning stages of goth I had to wear all black all the time. Not true! But I have always loved the aesthetic of gothic clothing and anything that goes with the subculture. I came to realize that I feel very comfortable with dressing the way I do. I cannot really explain why I like creepy things and such. But I know that ever since I was a child I thought different and liked different things than everyone else. I am goth because, well this is me. I would not feel myself dressing any other way.

Strangely enough Marilyn Manson was an inspiration for me. I know he is not goth but he does have the aesthetic occasionally. His music taught me to not be afraid to be myself. Not to be ashamed to be unique. Not to be ashamed or feel weird to dress different than everyone else. I was bullied a lot and his music really helped me not focus on the psychological pain associated with bullying.

So I am goth because, I just am! I am an individual and I love dressing the way I do. I discovered goth through music,television, and different people who were goth. (This is just to sum things up)

So do you have a musical inspiration?

Sugar Skull makeup! I was bored.

The Encyclopedia Gothica book review!

So If you did not know I work at a store called Books A Million. I recently ordered a book called The Encyclopedia Gothica. This book has a handy dandy family tree of Goth bands and Gothic places to visit before all around the world.

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Bats bridge in Austin, Texas? This is on my bucket list. The way the book is sorted is of course an A to Z encyclopedia. From Absinthe to Zombies, I really enjoy this book. If you are not too knowledgeable of classic Goth bands or certain aspects of the culture I really recommend this book because of its format. I bought it just because. And of course it has little snarky comments here and there. It says the Perky Goth is "prone to bouncing.", and this is definitely relevant to me. I bounce...deal with it!

Horrid lighting!

The book itself is beautiful but not as big as I imagined it to be. The cover looks aged and the pages look distressed. Better than what I expected!

Also I have recently fallen in love with grey eyeshadow. I took pictures after a random day of Lost Boys inspiration. I also teased my hair and did a faux side shave look. So do you have a favorite gothy book?

Oh and I love wearing only one ear ring. Viva la 80's!